What does the memory of Christ mean? Using reason again according to its nature! That is, not reducing my reality, my "I" to my mood. If i reduce everything to my mood, after a few days, i wouldnt be able to go on. Someone could say, "She's really suffering from X's death"...I assure you, instead, that if you stayed at this level, in very little time you wouldnt be able to go on. You would need to forget in order to continue living. Only a person who does not need to forget (rather remembering, urges him to the memory of Christ) can stay in front of death and can remain X's friend in another modality. The others, wether they want to or not, would erase him from their lives. Not out of spite, but because they would not be able to stay in front of him, and would have to forget. And instead of staying before the eternal, they would have to return to the usual life and reduce reality to appearances.
Instead , every time it hurts, every time i feel the wound, if it is an ocassion of memory, we see how X remains our friend. He is more a friend than ever, because nothing has made us live before the truth, that is, before the eternal, the way Xs death has. And this judges all our friendship, which, many times, rather than helping us to live before the eternal, make us forget it, distract us from the eternal.
What kind of friendship is ours? It is as if the death of a friend puts our back to the wall: What kind of friendship is ours, if not for being able to look at this? If we are not friends in death, then we are not even friends in life- even if it does not wound us as much as death.
Lets finish by saying this: we cannot fill the void left by death with our imagination. What is of X now? What do you think? To think about it, from where do you start? Jesus said, " Now this is eternal life, that they should know you, the only true God, and the one whom you sent , Jesus Christ". For this reason, the only modality for not filling this unknown with our imagination and then attributing it to the Mystery (which is almost inevitably the risk we fall prey to if we are not careful)consists in helping each other look at X starting from the experience we have had with Christ. Because X, now, is living the fulfillment of that experience, is living that experience more intensely, is living the whole of that experience, of that beginning. But it is the fulfillment of what he was already living here! It is not something else; it is the fulfillment of that. So then , eternal life is not eternal boredom, such that in the end we could think, " Poor fellow, what a shame!" Perhaps X is more fortunate than we. Rather, not perhaps: he is more fortunate than we, because today he is telling us, " Look, life is this!" With his living this fulness now, he is saying to all of us, " Look, friends, life is this! Life is Christ, and death is gain".
