The first fall
of the righteous and the utter confusion surrounding it. The ego becomes terribly scared when a
striving person experiences that the cross which he had once thought mastered, comes
crashing heavily over him, and as he discovers himself doing that which he had
once condemned in others.
Chances and
grace happen to confidence, and when grace is withdrawn, no man can stand. A
man stands because the Mystery has surrounded him with an environment to make him
stand. Withdraw these factors and he falls like everyone else. It is foolish to
boast, and be careful when condemning others. No man is strong when grace is
withdrawn.
The first fall
either purifies a soul or kills it. There often results a deep struggle of
conscience where the allurement of the sin involved crashes on the soul, pulls it
to the ground and wants to keep it fallen under its malaise. To sin is human,
but to persevere (callously) in it is devilish, so says St. Theresa. Many not
only fall prey but remain preyed to the fall of their sins. Hell is filled with
deadened consciences.
How will
modern man refrain from justifying his acts? How, bedevilled continually by the gravity
of sin, can he refuse to succumb to the entropy of this first fall, amidst the
failings of sex, the lies with money, the levity with murder, which have so much
scarred consciences in our age, such that heaven weeps to see many missing out of the
vast opportunities after a first fall.
Progress of a soul does not consist in not falling, it lies
within a struggle. Many unfortunately opt for the Judasic method of the first
fall instead of the Petrine type. They succumb to entropy.
The first
mortal fall may probably happen to most. Do not stifle the rumblings of your
soul, do not excuse it, refrain from avoiding the sense of sin, do not deny your
infidelities, avoid being a party to those who bank their evils thereby causing the
gradual corruption and degradation of humanity. Struggle against the fallen
tide of your sin, and rise.
Beg the Lord
to know your sins, do not run from them. Running away was the primal reaction
of Adam to his fallen state and see what its costed us. Look yourself in the mirror and
tell it as it is, say: ‘I am a miserable sinner, help me Lord’ and simply trust
in His mercy. This is what captures the heart of God (Luke 18:9-14)
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